I can't stop myself from wanting to die.

I wish I could put my thoughts into words,
try to explain what's wrong and why I'm so sad,
but the words don't come and even if they did,
I wouldn't even know where to begin.

I wish I knew how to tell you to save me.
But we both know I can't just say it, and you don't
know how, so let's just forget it all.
Let us cover it all up with smiles and words.
Let us hope that one day I'll be happy;
one day I'll be saved, too.